Gender v.s. Sex

Biological Gender (sex) includes physical attributes such as external genitalia, sex chromosomes, gonads, sex hormones, and internal reproductive structures. At birth, it is used to assign sex, that is, to identify individuals as male or female.”

Gender is the complex interrelationship between an individual’s sex (gender biology), one’s internal sense of self as male, female, both or neither (gender identity) as well as one’s outward presentations and behaviors (gender expression) related to that perception, including their gender role.”

Together, the intersection of these three dimensions produces one’s authentic sense of gender, both in how people experience their own gender as well as how others perceive it.”

– Gender Spectrum

Making Reconnections

      So, I've make some reconnections with my ex's Haley White, and Nathaniel Davis. I dated Haley last winter, and I dated Nathaniel in second semester of eighth grade. I am friends with them now and I started dating Haley again but, I have more feelings for Nathaniel, but i think we are just good friends, probs because if been skyping Nathaniel but I can't skype Haley because she doesn't have an account, and I can only text her because she only texts me really late at night and I don't wanna keep anyone for going to sleep. I think once we see eachother and hangout Haley and I will reconnect, even better then before.

Long time no see

             My names are Bella when I am a girl and Maverick when I am a guy, I am 15 years of age, I play the trombone, I sing, I do plays and musicals, I am a poet, I am a Lady-Boy. Ever since I remember I have not really identified with boys or girls and if i did have to choose I'd go with what ever I am on that day. When I was in third grade I would always try to think of a name that combines boy and girl but nothing came to mind, keep in mind this was in 2009-2010. In eighth grade I got in a serious relationship with a guy who only thought of it as a friend relationship, but I thought it was so much more than that, so I called boys over rated and decited to try dating girls, best decision ever, so I came out as gay in the summer of the 2014-2015 school year ( summer of 2015). When ninth grade came around (2015-2016) I was ready for a serious relationship only to findout history repeats it self, once again, I was in a relationship with a senior who only thinks of the relationship to be friends with benifits, that asshole never saw or talked to me again. Then I met Haley White the girl of my dreams quite litterally, we dated but never really D.T.R.'ed so when my friend broke us up I was pissed, then we've been texting lately hopefully we can start over and offically D.T.R, by going to homecoming, we kinda are Camanche's star lesbian lovers. I love this girl she is my all, my everything, she is mine.

Time to come home a little bit more clean!

This is supposed to be an inspirational speech and well as you seen from my last post you can tell I'm not that good at this but if I must I will....

     As a young girl I was big headed, strong-willed, brave, courageous, sassy, self-centered, and strong. I protected my sister from everyone and anyone who I thought was a threat. I also was kind, and thoughtful. But I had problems, my parents couldn't understand how I could switch behaviors instantaneously,or how I could get no sleep at all and still be my regular self. Little did we know that due to what happened during my mother's pregnancy I was gravely affected. We found out in second grade that I had some disorder a mixture of ADHD and ADD, so I started taking medication. The medication had many side effects from making me not want to eat to making me angry and tired. In second grade I took medication that made me not want to eat so I only ate every couple of weeks but I was forced. In fifth grade I was down to 59 pounds. I was tall is the tallest kindergartner. Which is to say 4'9" I was all skin and bones, so to fix this problem we added more and more medication. Again the medication we added made me angry ,tired ,and not want to eat.So  with all the anger I had from the medications it made me have outbursts and it with that made Ressa scared of me, but now she is less scared of me. I just only reason why I chose this quote to use for high school would be I've gone through some stuff obviously And made me hard to trust people and to date but as to quote John Bon Jovi 

        "Shot thru the heart and your too late you give love a bad name."

 I'm not as emotionally strong as I would like to be I was wounded. I need to be stronger and I will. The help of my peers and family I will be stronger and better than ever! 

Time to come clean!!

Where to start, I guess at the beginning would be appropriate. When I was a little girl math never came easy to me. I was never taught how to subtract correctly. So my mom helped me, and when she helped me she played a guitar to help me solve the problems correctly and the weird part is I actually got it. 

   As some of you know my birth grandma Was diagnosed with the disease that affects the thyroids. It generally is genetic in most women symptoms show up after their first pregnancy or birth of their first child.  Some of the symptoms are the same as ADHD which also has the same symptoms as puberty. I take medicine for ADHD ODD ADD and I have a slight case of autism. I take 30mg of Ritalin in the morning, 20 MG of Ritalin at lunch .5 MG of strodome , Two melatonin, and one Tegretol at night. 

     Frankly I don't care if you are mean to me about this because I realize that being mentally challenged and taking medicine.

 so if you have a problem with this talk to me about it to my face and not behind my back! I also have a 5o4 which allows me to get in front of the lunch line being allowed to use my iPod when others aren't me going to the office/library to take IT BS test.

   So technically I am following the rules I have my own set of rules don't go to my sister about this stuff if you have a problem with that come to me because

THIS IS ME!!!

Today the play is over last one of middle school

Last night

Last night was the first true girls night with any of my friends sense fifth grade totally depressing!! Last night was crazy we went full out!