Friday, May 22, 2015

Time to come home a little bit more clean!

This is supposed to be an inspirational speech and well as you seen from my last post you can tell I'm not that good at this but if I must I will....
     As a young girl I was big headed, strong-willed, brave, courageous, sassy, self-centered, and strong. I protected my sister from everyone and anyone who I thought was a threat. I also was kind, and thoughtful. But I had problems, my parents couldn't understand how I could switch behaviors instantaneously,or how I could get no sleep at all and still be my regular self. Little did we know that due to what happened during my mother's pregnancy I was gravely affected. We found out in second grade that I had some disorder a mixture of ADHD and ADD, so I started taking medication. The medication had many side effects from making me not want to eat to making me angry and tired. In second grade I took medication that made me not want to eat so I only ate every couple of weeks but I was forced. In fifth grade I was down to 59 pounds. I was tall is the tallest kindergartner. Which is to say 4'9" I was all skin and bones, so to fix this problem we added more and more medication. Again the medication we added made me angry ,tired ,and not want to eat.So  with all the anger I had from the medications it made me have outbursts and it with that made Ressa scared of me, but now she is less scared of me. I just only reason why I chose this quote to use for high school would be I've gone through some stuff obviously And made me hard to trust people and to date but as to quote John Bon Jovi 
        "Shot thru the heart and your too late you give love a bad name."
 I'm not as emotionally strong as I would like to be I was wounded. I need to be stronger and I will. The help of my peers and family I will be stronger and better than ever! 

Thursday, May 21, 2015

Time to come clean!!

Where to start, I guess at the beginning would be appropriate. When I was a little girl math never came easy to me. I was never taught how to subtract correctly. So my mom helped me, and when she helped me she played a guitar to help me solve the problems correctly and the weird part is I actually got it. 
   As some of you know my birth grandma Was diagnosed with the disease that affects the thyroids. It generally is genetic in most women symptoms show up after their first pregnancy or birth of their first child.  Some of the symptoms are the same as ADHD which also has the same symptoms as puberty. I take medicine for ADHD ODD ADD and I have a slight case of autism. I take 30mg of Ritalin in the morning, 20 MG of Ritalin at lunch .5 MG of strodome , Two melatonin, and one Tegretol at night. 
     Frankly I don't care if you are mean to me about this because I realize that being mentally challenged and taking medicine.
 so if you have a problem with this talk to me about it to my face and not behind my back! I also have a 5o4 which allows me to get in front of the lunch line being allowed to use my iPod when others aren't me going to the office/library to take IT BS test.
   So technically I am following the rules I have my own set of rules don't go to my sister about this stuff if you have a problem with that come to me because
THIS IS ME!!!

Monday, January 19, 2015

Last night

Last night was the first true girls night with any of my friends sense fifth grade totally depressing!! Last night was crazy we went full out! 

Monday, January 12, 2015

Drama of the day

Well today we had a "meeting" for the play at my school "attack of the zombies" 
And really it wasn't a meeting u just walked in and she told u about how we are going to still have practice tonight and we still are going to have the play at the same time same place! "Very helpful". Anyway today I get to go to McDonald's for dinner then go to play practice and right now I am in a waiting room right by my sister and she is complaining that my music is too loud!! My mom said "well what do you expect we are in a waiting room!" We are waiting for my medication update appointment we are going to up the night time medication and day time medication so ya big changes are coming my way so fun 👎 not!

Sunday, January 11, 2015

Latest problems

Omg so on Friday night I was up all night and last night I was up half of the night! God I need a Carmel latte from star bucks!! So Nathanial was suppose to skype me but I guess he forgot to? I don't know!  But I don't care maybe he will Skype me today?!😻

Saturday, January 10, 2015

Latest obsessions...

Ok so lately I have been obsessed with mine craft, trivia crack, and the best tv show ever called "awkward"!!! I am selling cookie dough till the 20th of this month the cookie dough will be in on the 29th of this month, we are raising money to go to Adventure Land yay!!!!! I need to sell 10 to pay off the trip, I need to sell 12 to get a pig!?!?! The stage celling has a crack going all the way across the roof of the stage so we might have to use the middle school stage 🙏 oh If that happens God help us all! I got hand selected for honor band!?!? Yay!!???