Friday, May 22, 2015

Time to come home a little bit more clean!

This is supposed to be an inspirational speech and well as you seen from my last post you can tell I'm not that good at this but if I must I will....
     As a young girl I was big headed, strong-willed, brave, courageous, sassy, self-centered, and strong. I protected my sister from everyone and anyone who I thought was a threat. I also was kind, and thoughtful. But I had problems, my parents couldn't understand how I could switch behaviors instantaneously,or how I could get no sleep at all and still be my regular self. Little did we know that due to what happened during my mother's pregnancy I was gravely affected. We found out in second grade that I had some disorder a mixture of ADHD and ADD, so I started taking medication. The medication had many side effects from making me not want to eat to making me angry and tired. In second grade I took medication that made me not want to eat so I only ate every couple of weeks but I was forced. In fifth grade I was down to 59 pounds. I was tall is the tallest kindergartner. Which is to say 4'9" I was all skin and bones, so to fix this problem we added more and more medication. Again the medication we added made me angry ,tired ,and not want to eat.So  with all the anger I had from the medications it made me have outbursts and it with that made Ressa scared of me, but now she is less scared of me. I just only reason why I chose this quote to use for high school would be I've gone through some stuff obviously And made me hard to trust people and to date but as to quote John Bon Jovi 
        "Shot thru the heart and your too late you give love a bad name."
 I'm not as emotionally strong as I would like to be I was wounded. I need to be stronger and I will. The help of my peers and family I will be stronger and better than ever! 

Thursday, May 21, 2015

Time to come clean!!

Where to start, I guess at the beginning would be appropriate. When I was a little girl math never came easy to me. I was never taught how to subtract correctly. So my mom helped me, and when she helped me she played a guitar to help me solve the problems correctly and the weird part is I actually got it. 
   As some of you know my birth grandma Was diagnosed with the disease that affects the thyroids. It generally is genetic in most women symptoms show up after their first pregnancy or birth of their first child.  Some of the symptoms are the same as ADHD which also has the same symptoms as puberty. I take medicine for ADHD ODD ADD and I have a slight case of autism. I take 30mg of Ritalin in the morning, 20 MG of Ritalin at lunch .5 MG of strodome , Two melatonin, and one Tegretol at night. 
     Frankly I don't care if you are mean to me about this because I realize that being mentally challenged and taking medicine.
 so if you have a problem with this talk to me about it to my face and not behind my back! I also have a 5o4 which allows me to get in front of the lunch line being allowed to use my iPod when others aren't me going to the office/library to take IT BS test.
   So technically I am following the rules I have my own set of rules don't go to my sister about this stuff if you have a problem with that come to me because
THIS IS ME!!!